Its Time

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It has been a long way and now is the time that I do need to move on, leave my past behind.

 For the past five months I have been in denial. I have continually leaved in the past. My mindset was full of what ifs and what could have beens but just now right at this very moment I just realized I need to move on.
Junior Year was indeed my glory year. I will always remember and cherish it as the best year of my HS life, sadly it could not go on forever. It needed to end just like many good things.
 
Everything will always have a special place in my heart, but all good things must come to an end. It took me a long time to see the truth, that it is over, It hurts like hell but the realization of how much it has held me back hits me like a bullet. I could not go on like this forever.


 The realization of how much I held back dawns on me. I allowed my past to get the best of me, for the past five months I have been contented reminiscing on everything that has happened during my junior year thinking that it was the best ever but NO I cannot be contented  on what I already achieved. i should be looking at things that are bigger, brighter and better. I cannot reminisce the past forever.
It has come to this point I need to let go. I need to accept the fact that its over. Yes, I enjoyed every moment of it but its time to close that chapter of my life. It hurts to know that in one way or another it has held me back, it stopped me realizing what I truly want. It breaks my heart to think of all the great memories we shared. I will always and forever treasure those memories as for now I need to find myself yet again I have been so contented thinking that I already have done so much but truth be told I have done nothing.
It is indeed time to let go I cannot dwell on the past. I cannot dwell on the memories of my junior year either its time to move on. 5 months was a long enough time to realize how much I missed but right now my mind is set with new goals. My heart is once again ablaze with the competitive spirit that I once had.

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