Charm In Ink

Life has many contradictions. I have learned this the hard way. The months of January and February has brought me immense changes. Changes that I would have not thought possible until I realized that it was really happening. During the painful process of actually realizing things I have become arrogant and selfish. I became conceited, self centered and egocentric to the point that I might have offended others. I am not entirely blaming myself for this but then again I have realized that sometimes I would really have to make hard decisions as well as sacrifices. I made mistakes and I realize that now, but that does not mean to say that others have the right to judge me or talk shit behind my back. I have always been that girl who faced every challenge headstrong and this time is no different. I know that with the decision that I made I will be happy and I will be able to do what I love the most.

As I am packing my things, I reminisce at the time that has passed since I first did this about 19 months ago. Back then I was that girl with the biggest hopes but having tasted some failures I have learned that not everything goes according to plan. I am part of an organization as well as I am a part of a student council and my experiences in both has taught me so much not only about others but more so about myself. I have learned to accept my flaws, I have leaned that despite wanting everything to be perfect sometimes destiny has other plans. I have also learned to let go of my fears, to some extent I have realized that I should not always be over thinking and over analyzing things. I should not complicate things because I am just being too hard on myself. Most importantly I have learned that not everyone who comes into my life stays in it. I have met a lot of new people, I got closer to some of them and not so much with others. I have learned that people do come and go and the...

The laughter during this adventure was served in great heaps and I can honestly say that for the first time in a long time I really felt happy and contented. I may have problems but it is during times like this that I realize how great my friends are especially my Brods and Sisses ♥ Yesterday was one of the most exhausting yet fun days ever, I immensely enjoyed the company of the people who were with me last Friday Night up to this Morning. Friday night was karaoke night ♥ Saturday was Divisoria Day and Katipunan Night ♥ See what an eventful weekend I had. I never would change anything it goes to show that I am very grateful to get to spend time with the people I love and cherish. This just proves that I was right when I said that it still continues to be a gift worth taking a chance for. Thank you so much for everyone who spent the weekend with me and made me laugh walking in the busy streets of Divosoria would have not been endurable without you guys. It was like a All-in-one activi...

For quite some time, I have been pushing my emotions away, I needed to or else it would not be just me who would suffer. Time and time again I tried to be that person that I needed to be, I needed to play a certain role but along with playing that role came consequences. For quite some time I have been trying to be strong to be that wall that nobody could break but as the days and moments passed I realized that I could not have the best of both worlds. I cannot please everyone but I had to at least try to reconcile differences. I always was steadfast in my belief that the path I chose is and forever will be a gift worth taking a chance for, this never changed. Amid everything that has happened in the past few months, I still do believe that it is a gift that I would repeatedly take a chance for. It is not easy and I think that it will never be easy, there will always that irrational part of me, the part that would so conveniently give up. I am now once again at the crossroads thinking ...

As I helped in today’s Freshmen Registration Assistance, I can’t help but reminisce in the journey that I have taken in the last year or so. A year or so ago, my journey started. The first time I set foot in UPLB was for my medical check-up, the second time was for my registration, the 3 rd time was when I fixed my dormitory accommodation  and `finally I came back for the official start of classes. Never did I expect that I would ever get more than I bargained for, Elbi has now become my home or at least my second home. City life has always been my life, I have been used to the hustle and bustle on the streets,  the malls and shopping centers that seem to be everywhere in the metro. Studying in UPLB has been a welcome change, not only was it a change in my surroundings but I can happily say that Elbi has changed me as a person. I know a year in the university is not that long a time, to me however, one academic year of stay already feels like I have been here f...

Society is inherently judgmental, this is something that I have learned in the short time that I have been a sociology student. The world around us could actually dictate who we are and what we should become, it indirectly affects how we act and how we perceive the world and our reality. The video made me realize how unblemished, how innocent and how fearless a child is when it comes to the harsh realities of the world, their innocent minds enable them to question reality without fear, they are able to voice out their opinions without thinking of what other people might think thus hearing a child speak out her view makes me wonder of how twisted our society is. Gender seems to be a topic that interests many; there are cries of gender equality from all over the world and even in the UPLB campus. Our society now seems to be fascinated with issues’ regarding gender and sex particularly that of equality and marriage; however these issues seem to be more on the macro level which I...

The last week of November has been very very hectic. The whole month was actually hectic but the last week was a real challenge. It was a roller coaster of emotion that had me screaming all over the place and in the wake of recent events I realized just how sentimental and possessive I could be. I know for a fact that I am possessive and that I am sentimental, the only problem was I actually didn't know just how far I could take it. I even surprised myself when I actually broke down and cried, believe me even I cannot explain my actions but maybe its rooted to the fact that I really really value the people around me or maybe I have abandonment issues well who knows, right??? December is the month of giving and although a part of me hurts with the recent turn out of events I realized that it may actually be a blessing, The wizard was actually right, when the time comes for him to live, then, I would already have someone who will be with me, A new sister in fact not just a friend...