Get Over It, Its Offensive

"I loved tests because it was another form of competing, a healthy competition"
-Suzanne Farrell

Given, there is such a thing as healthy competition but what started out to be healthy turned into being offensive and insulting.

I remember the day when I was comfortably sitting on the throne as the smartest girl in my class with no fear of competition and dethronement unlike my reign as class president, and then it happened, competition came in the form of a new classmate, believe me I have nothing against her personally. I admit I may sound a little bit too selfish but that's just who I am, anyways lets just get back to the story.

I have ranked 1 in my class for 2 consecutive quarters, I mean that's a hell lot of an achievement isn't it? Anyways I was already happy with what was happening to me and it made me feel like the happiest girl in the world it felt so good to know that I did it, I achieved something. I felt pretty comfortable with where I was, I was on top the only thing that I could ask for was to stay there and then it happened my world started crumbling around me, someone new came along and she was a threat to me.

It started out healthy it made the competitiveness inside of me awake as one my teachers commented I was on fire I said I would not go down without a fight and it happened she scored higher than me on a quiz a freaking QUIZ call me shallow but I did cry I went into depression mode for a week It felt like the end of the world to me, she was higher than me by 2 points, oh the shame.

In my class it was common knowledge that my best subject was Englsih and it was in that subject wherein she scored higher than me way to go girl, you just made me enter deadpan mode. Every time a quiz came our scores were always compared not only in the English subject but in other subjects as well it even came to a point wherein many of my subject teachers were aware of the competition going on.

I admit I enjoyed the competition going on and to be honest I liked it, it made me the competitive person that I am and the Periodical tests came along guess what? in every test that we took she scored higher than me congratulations you did it I just entered desperation mode my only hope was English my best subject  I was desperate for a diversion in my attention I don't know if it was anger, fear or sadness that took over me but it certainly was not a goof feeling Thank God I got the highest score in my English exam 94/110 what a relief. Then came the IPT I admit it was my worst performance, It was a failure on my part and then she performed and to hear my teacher say that She is Indeed better than Me felt like a slap in the face it was a devastating blow for me, after that I lost all hope, I wasn't expecting to be that rank 1 for long. I was expecting a dethronement just like what happened when I was class president but alas It was not what happened against all odds I managed to stay unto my throne it was quite a surprise that I even cried when I found out. I proved myself for the  Third time and to those who said I won't be rank 1 anymore well I can confidently say that I TOLD YOU SO!

After that I really thought that the teasing and taunting would stop I mean I have proven myself haven't I?, why not let the matter rest I mean I did it I was better than her what else do you want. 

My classmates loved it when they saw me lose my patience and cry or went into quiet mode but they did not realize that what they were doing was insensitive and insulting especially to me. They very well knew that there is not a single most important thing to me than staying on top but they chose to wipe it on my face every time I was not the best, every time someone beated me. I mean enough already You made your point can't you just stop?


And just yesterday they did it again, and finally I lost my patience they were too insensitive they do not think of my emotions I admit I am a very emotional person their taunts may just have taken its toll so will you please stop already.


I know competition is a good thing but having a healthy competition has its limits not everything can be taken as a joke try being in my position sometime and maybe you'll now the feeling when the single most important thing to you is in danger of being taken away then tell me that its okay.