Charm In Ink

2017 was my year of Magpunyagi! It has been a challengingvyear filled with new experiences both good and bad. The entire year has been a roller coaster ride with intertwining highs and lows. I welcomed big changes as 2017 came, changes that were not a choice but changes brought about by circumstance and need. I welcomed such changes and I have learned plenty of things along the way. As I turned 20, I welcomed a new chapter of my life both literally and figuratively. The position that I now hold as UPLB USC Chairperson is an opportunity and experience that I will always be thankful for. It has not been easy navagating my way thru the web of things to do all throughout the year and there were plenty of times that I almost gave it all up and just quit. It has been a year of many firsts and many lasts, it has been a joy and a burden to have experienced everything all at the same time. From organizinv one event and another to talking and meeting with people and more importan...

Today started out just like any other day, it was but just another event that we/I would have to pull off. I expected it to be draining but not too the point that it would be my saturation point. I have been crying uncontrollably this past week but today was unlike any other day, in the sense that it was not just sadness that overwhelmed me, but there was anger and disappointment and to an extent, there was disdain for the people around me, I hated them for making me feel bad about myself, for making me feel like a very insignificant thing in the bigger spectrum of things, it was as though all my efforts were to be defined by a text message or my ability or inability to reply at the rate that they expected me to. Keep going just wasn't going to resolve me or to make me feel any better, I did my part of the bargain but people seemed to have forgotten that very small part I play in the greater scheme of things, The past 3 months has been exhausting and it is finally taking a toll...

I entered the University in 2013 with high hopes of graduating on time and finishing my degree with flying colors. I've always expected the best for myself, I set high standards and I wanted excellence in anything that I do. I was hell bent on graduating on time and finishing my 4-year course in 4 years, no more no less. As I now see my batchmates trying to finish all their requirements, saying that its just a few more steps till they get to march on that stage with their proud smiles and their sablay on their shoulders I cannot help but ask what if? It actually came to a point that I had to ask did I really make bad decisions, was I a bad student to not graduate on time, does it actually make me less of a person when I chose to not graduate on time. As I navigated my way thru college, I learned that sometimes graduating on time is not the ultimate goal well for me at least and to some of my peers. Many would actually question my motivations on why I chose the path that I took but ...

There is barely an hour left till I officially turn 18 which means to say that I will be of age in a little while. Turning 18 is a big deal since 18 is the age where a girl turns into a lady, It may seem cliche but even I can't believe that in just a few moments I would legally become an adult. In the past 18 years, my life has not been perfect but it has been a roller coaster ride. In the 18 years that I have lived there is so much to be thankful for and for everyone who has been a part of my life in one way or another thank you. As I enter a new chapter of my life I bring with me lessons that I have learned as well as experiences that I will cherish. Turning 18 mean a lot to me since it will bring in new responsibilities. I cannot believe how fast time flew by for it seems just like yesterday when I turned 13 and became a teenager but now here I am about to turn 18 and become legally an adult. I know that life would be harder from here on out but I know that I will be a...

Life has many contradictions. I have learned this the hard way. The months of January and February has brought me immense changes. Changes that I would have not thought possible until I realized that it was really happening. During the painful process of actually realizing things I have become arrogant and selfish. I became conceited, self centered and egocentric to the point that I might have offended others. I am not entirely blaming myself for this but then again I have realized that sometimes I would really have to make hard decisions as well as sacrifices. I made mistakes and I realize that now, but that does not mean to say that others have the right to judge me or talk shit behind my back. I have always been that girl who faced every challenge headstrong and this time is no different. I know that with the decision that I made I will be happy and I will be able to do what I love the most.

As I am packing my things, I reminisce at the time that has passed since I first did this about 19 months ago. Back then I was that girl with the biggest hopes but having tasted some failures I have learned that not everything goes according to plan. I am part of an organization as well as I am a part of a student council and my experiences in both has taught me so much not only about others but more so about myself. I have learned to accept my flaws, I have leaned that despite wanting everything to be perfect sometimes destiny has other plans. I have also learned to let go of my fears, to some extent I have realized that I should not always be over thinking and over analyzing things. I should not complicate things because I am just being too hard on myself. Most importantly I have learned that not everyone who comes into my life stays in it. I have met a lot of new people, I got closer to some of them and not so much with others. I have learned that people do come and go and the...

The laughter during this adventure was served in great heaps and I can honestly say that for the first time in a long time I really felt happy and contented. I may have problems but it is during times like this that I realize how great my friends are especially my Brods and Sisses ♥ Yesterday was one of the most exhausting yet fun days ever, I immensely enjoyed the company of the people who were with me last Friday Night up to this Morning. Friday night was karaoke night ♥ Saturday was Divisoria Day and Katipunan Night ♥ See what an eventful weekend I had. I never would change anything it goes to show that I am very grateful to get to spend time with the people I love and cherish. This just proves that I was right when I said that it still continues to be a gift worth taking a chance for. Thank you so much for everyone who spent the weekend with me and made me laugh walking in the busy streets of Divosoria would have not been endurable without you guys. It was like a All-in-one activi...