Charm In Ink

They say that Three times the Charm, for my case it was not and surprisingly I'm okay with that. This time around it came as no surprise for I stopped expecting things a long time ago. The pain was lessened yes, but it was not removed. I know in my heart of hearts that there always will be that empty spot that for so long yearned the reassurance that I am good enough. "There are no Failures, only delayed successes" this is what my English teacher told me and when I put it that way maybe he's right. It is all a matter of perspective, Yes it did hurt but the question is will I be able to stand  back up. J.K Rowling once said " It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all - in which case, you fail by default." Failure is an essential part of life, everyone will at one point experience a failure so why mop around asking what could have been?, why not face tomorrow and ...

Senior year, ooooohh the excitement and the thrills of being a high school graduating student. I actually expected it to be the best part of my HS life but unfortunately it did not leave up to my expectations or maybe I myself did not live up to my own expectations. I entered senior year with high hopes, dreams and goals, but up to this point, Nothing, maybe a few rewards here and there but nothing big or major. Several times this year I have questioned myself am I really not good enough, was last year a fluke, was it all an accidents, was I foolish enough to believe that I was good, that I was smart. NO, this realization hits me right in my face, last year was not an accident for it happened for a reason, I indeed have become complacent, I have been contented going with the flow and this is the reason for my recent failures. It is safe to say that I have indeed cried a thousand tears, I heave been through alot, Yes I indeed have had a fair share of triumphs but looking back those ...

It has been a long way and now is the time that I do need to move on, leave my past behind. For the past five months I have been in denial. I have continually leaved in the past. My mindset was full of what ifs and what could have beens but just now right at this very moment I just realized I need to move on. Junior Year was indeed my glory year. I will always remember and cherish it as the best year of my HS life, sadly it could not go on forever. It needed to end just like many good things.   Everything will always have a special place in my heart, but all good things must come to an end. It took me a long time to see the truth, that it is over, It hurts like hell but the realization of how much it has held me back hits me like a bullet. I could not go on like this forev er. The realization of how much I held back dawns on me. I allowed my past to get the best of me, for the past five months I have been contented reminiscing on everything that has happened during ...

The words "To Remember" seems to be an overused word whenever I make titles for my blog posts but still I use it, why? because many thing in life are worth remembering and cherishing. This time around the event was my retreat with my classmates as a whole we are collectively known as G10 Our Lady of the Assumption.  It was indeed an experience like no other to be close to God in  the way that I did during this retreat was unprecedented, although the youth camp last year was also unprecedented, this experience was still something different, something new. I did enjoy, and I did realize many things, The true meaning of the word Love, The Art of Letting Go, The way in which are perspectives vary and the way in which God truly communicates with us. It has been a great experience, it was exhilarating and at the same time liberating, I learned so much and the experiences that I experienced will never be forgotten, I will indeed treasure them for life.

I've been back at school for 2 weeks now and yes I indeed miss my old classmates, I miss how secure I felt when I was with them, I miss how we all got along, I miss spending time with them and I miss everything and anything that I did with them. 10 months, now thats a long time to spend with a certain group of people, for me those ten months seemed to be a lifetime, a bond was indeed created and it really felt like a true family. Right now, I seem to be in a very unusual territory, it feels as though I'm in a whole other world, I miss the familiarity of my old classmates and old friends, to you it may seem foolish, they were just classmates, why not move on, well to me they are just so much more they're my brothers and my sisters and we had a mom. It pains me to think that we will never share those moments again its a new year after all, and maybe they have moved on, but I surely haven't. I miss being their Prime Minister, I miss the times that we enjoyed together...

What an awesome day did I jsu have? well it was pretty tiring but still I had so much fun. What we did today was travel the whole of Ilocos Norte from its first town of Badoc up to its second to the last which was Pagudpod it was so much. It was a day full of thrill and enjoyment. Coming from Badoc which is the hometown of my mom and my maternal grandmother we the had a 3 hour drive with stopovers at the towns of Pasiquin and Batac, we finally reached our first destination which was the town of Bangui wherein the largest windmills of southeast asia are located. From there  we then went to Pagudpod and had our lunch at a resort called Agua Grande, yes the water was called but at the same time it was also refreshing. The water in the pools directly came from a waterfall at the mountains surrounding the area. it was so much fun. we swam,we ate,we laughed it was a new and excitimg experience.  We also went to the Burgos light house as well as we had a ta...

Its again the time of the year on which I will again be celebrating my birthday, during this time I try to remember all the things that happened in the past year and how it has impacted my life. Can you believe it?, in just a few short hours I will be turning 15 ,but why the hype? age is just a number isn't  it? Yes age may be just a number but still its exciting to look back at what you have done and what you achieved. In the past year I have experienced so much from achievements to failures, a couple of happy moments,successes, to not so happy moments, and to disa ppointments. It has been an exciting year full of laughter and tears so lets take a look back shall we? April 04, 2011 yes! I turned Fourteen As I turned 14 I entered my Junior year of high school, turns out Junior year would be my most successful year as a student. Rank 1 for 3 consecutive quarters, Deportment Awardee, Countless contest wins, from quiz bees to dramatic monologues and more but all of these achieve...